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Hey fellow elftowners.

This is a confessional page...it is completely annonymous... if you just need someone to talk to.

[I'm always here to help, just message me. I'm free to talk about emotional distress, pain, memories, cutting, suicide, drugs, alcohol, anything you may need to confess or talk about, I'm here to help you, and to help you make decisions, whatever I may suggest, you have no obligation to do, in your heart, you need to do whats right.]

Talk to me.
I can help Y.O.U through tough times and I try to help with anything I can, the skys the limit... I really just want to help people and try to make the world a better place.

[I won't ever judge you.]

So if you need to confess something...just get it off your chest...or if your just bored and need someone to chat with...message me. Im here for you.

I just want to take a second to thank everyone again who sends me messages saying how much they appreciate this wiki and all of the people who took my poll, thank you all :)

im glad people are using the chat down at the bottom, but i retain from typing there because i think that should be a place where you can talk amongst yourselves

You dont need to be a member of this wiki...come and go as you please...take what you want.

"When you get what you want
in your struggle for self
and the world makes you king for a day
just go to the mirror and look at yourself
and see what that man has to say.

For it isn't your father or mother or wife,
whose judgment upon you must pass
The fellow whose verdict count most in your life
is the one staring back from the glass.

Some people may think you a straight shootin' chum
and call you a wonderful guy.
But the man in the glass says you're only a bum
if you can't look him straight in the eye.

He's the fellow to please, never mind all the rest,
for he's with you clear up to the end,
and you've passed your most dangerous, difficult test
if the man in the glass is your friend.

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of life
and get pats on the back as you go,
But your final reward will be heartaches and tears
if you've cheated the man in the glass"

CoMfOrT
by [Dhom]

I was once told...

DON'T cry for what could have been
DON'T grieve for what has passed
And DON'T be weak and fall. Be strong for those around you.

To you I say...

CRY for what could have been.
GRIEVE for what has passed
And don't be afraid to FALL, because in weakness of heart, companionship and consolation is often found.

Remember...

Through WEAKNESS comes STRENGTH.
Through GRIEF comes PEACE
And through CRYING, comes the day when you can finally look upon the world and SMILE.

For those loved and lost never really leave you, but watch from the stars above.

ReMeMbEr To BrEaThE
by Dashboard Confessionals
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[BinaryPhoenix]

Don't kill yourself, there's no hurry
You should not make a decision out of sadness and fury
Life is not as horrible as it seems;
Don't end it all and give up on your dreams
You must realize you have your whole life ahead
You surely cant enjoy it, if you are dead
Before you know it, it will be your time to pass
Life is precious, and it goes by too fast
Lots of people can be cruel, that is definately true
But open your self-centered mind and
Realize that others have it worse than you
Suicide is selfish, it destroys the ones who care
You aren't the only victim, you should be aware
Instead of being pessimistic, you shoiuld think positive
There are so many reasons you are meant to live

by Natalie Luber
The National Library of Poetry - The Voice Within page 43

C.o.m.e W.a.t.c.h M.e B.l.e.e.d

Come, watch me bleed
Watch my broken heart cry
Watch my eyes shed red tears
As my head wonders why
Watch my fingers weave spells
Of malice and shame
See the cruelty bordered
With a twisted gold frame
Watch life's simple pleasures
Destroyed by wild greed
Watch my lips speak these words
'Oh come, watch me bleed'
[Izzles]

You've decided to do it. Life is impossible. Suicide is your way out. Fine -- but before you kill yourself, consider these facts:

[!!Suicide is not usually successful!!]

You know a guaranteed way? Ask the 25yr old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But, both of his arms are gone.
What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humour. That was before he lept from a building. Now, he's brain damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of all, he knows he used to be normal.
What about pills? Ask the 12yr old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go.
What about a gun? Ask the 24yd old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide.

You might too. But .. who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse the job -- but someone has to do it. Who will cut you down from where you hung yourself, or identify your bloated body after you've drowned? Your father? Your mother? Your sister or brother? The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will never completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain.

Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. You do have other choices. There are people you can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police. They will tell you there's hope. Maybe in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away.
You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it? Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later. And we'll work with whatever you have left.

If you are reading this, steal it and put it in your site too. If you're seriously considering this permanent solution to a temporary problem, please find help. This isn't the way to go, you may think that everyone would just be better off without you, but have you ever seen a family who has lost a loved one to suicide? They're messed up, the parents usually get divorced, the siblings never talk to each other. This not only ends your life, it changes the lives of others around you, but not in a good way. There are people who love you, and people who have been through the same things as you, even though it may not seem like it at times. So please, seek help.

I hope you have realized that Suicide's not the way out. there are so many other safer ways of dealing with your problems. Maybe you think it's easier to just die. But think of what you are giving up. you're leaving your family, friends, and all the people who care about you and love you. And maybe you're not even that old yet, you have to experience life, find true love, that kind of stuff. Killing yourself isn't going to help. That's just running away from your problems, it's not solving anything, it's not making it better.

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This is a mirror of my elfpack page, it goes by the same name on elfpack

2006-07-06 [Soul Assassin]: hehehehe airheads...i had a like experience w. a girl when i first came here...except she somehow came to the conclusion that i was a man and that i had a girlfriend...i let her go on for days before i enlightened her as to the fact a) that i'm a girl and b) that i don't even have a bf...she was pretty damn quiet after that. i can say from experience that bottling things is one of the worst ways to deal. seems the more u bottle the more bad shit happens. tho i agree that some ppl get seem to get more bad shit then others

2006-07-06 [sweetkiss]: it suks to have a bad life of great life for a couple years till about 4 and then u end up on the streets for a couple years till family rescuee u then.......................... but yah.. alot of ppl hav suky lives.. i feel vad 4 them

2006-07-06 [Zapinc]: *Boards Orbital Ralay* Life generally sucks I guess...Suicide is pointless

2006-07-07 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: yeah...

2006-07-07 [sweetkiss]: ....

2006-07-07 [Soul Assassin]: yes it is.

2006-07-07 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: totally pointless. Better sort your problems out. They CAN be fixed. Sort em out before you kill yourself...

2006-07-07 [†Sweets†]: emos!! tell the emos!!!

2006-07-07 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: LOL! Shame. They're not SO messed up! Just unhappy. They're usually really nice people.

2006-07-07 [Zapinc]: Proper suicidal emos are a bit stupid, because they are so unhappy about their lives, yet people who struggle to live every day keep going, you should put an emo in their shoes!!!

2006-07-07 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: True...lol. I'm also unhappy basically every day...To tell everyone the truth, i think i'm becoming goth or emo or something. It's like coming naturally.And it makes me happy. =/ If everyone gets me.

2006-07-07 [Dhom]: lol... it's ironic in a way...here we are saying that suicide is pointless but those who commit it came to the conclusion that life is pointless... but I think suicide is a state of mind at the time, rather than an illness (like depression) That's why I hate the idea that it can be fixed....not everything should be fixed or solved but rather helped or prevented. Because if you think about it, An unstable mind would think that in some way suicide is a solution or a fix... I don't know... I'm not too sure what I'm saying

2006-07-07 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: honestly, ive thought about suicide... but... the more it hink about it the more i hate it.... its not going to solve any problems... and i dont know if im ready to end my life and see what might await after i die... even though i have like... no more hopes of the future... and no more will power... and almost everyday i want to give up, theres always something, i dont know, like one last thread holding me back

2006-07-07 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: Im not an ethopian kid, i know my life isnt the worst, i know other people are struggling, i know, but... the options always out there for them too... difference is they have more hope or will or faith holding them to life

2006-07-07 [Zapinc]: There is not much hope for the Ethiopians etc, as if their debts are not frozen, their struggles will be useless

2006-07-08 [sweetkiss]: what's emo?? yah they arnt allways bad ppl. they r not stuip....

2006-07-08 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: They live in little huts anyways... why the fuck dont they just walk to somewhere better and built their little huts there??? emo people... hell i have no clue what the defination is... its just another stupid label or classification of people because of how they dress, act, music they listen to, etc... i hate labels but... nothing will stop you from being labeled unless you choose to just ignore it.

2006-07-08 [Zapinc]: *Leaves in Battleship Argon* Im going to stop posting here for a while, but will keep checking back, and will answer if someone asks me anything, ok? ^ ^

2006-07-09 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: why?

2006-07-09 [sweetkiss]: oo. .. still kinda confused but all well..

2006-07-09 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: hey guys i need sum advice with sumthin....

2006-07-09 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Okay. Talk.

2006-07-09 [sweetkiss]: what?

2006-07-10 [Dhom]: Emo means emotional. But it was a music movement in the 80's and 90's. It was happy though. None of the depressing, "I'm on my own" kind of thing. just really well...emotional. then it changed and became non existant and things like emo hardcore came out of it. It started off as just a different type of punk but evolved into something bigger...

2006-07-10 [Dhom]: People bag them out all the time and they really have no idea what they'll talking about. You have posers with every label and they usually give emo a bad name. I bet the actual emo's hate the posers just as much as anyone else.

2006-07-10 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: yeah... my best friends mom like, hates me, and i dont know wat to do about it, her mom thinks im a whore and a bad influence on her, but she got a %500 wrong first impression of me.

2006-07-10 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: =O Bitch!!! I think ur parents shud talk to that lady ><

2006-07-10 [Dhom]: lol. no. that would make it worse. All you really need to do is be civil and polite, asking how was your day and so forth...try or at least pretend to relate with the topics that interest her....yadda yadda. People love talking about themselves in the end so use it. A small amount of manipulation at the right time goes a long way.... all you really need to do is create a sense that your trustworthy.

2006-07-10 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: lol...Sorry, im angry today :P

2006-07-10 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: yeah... im one of the best bullshitters around. I know how to do it, its just i can never get around this woman to do anything. I was at my friends house and i was on the phone with one of my guy friends (not a boyfriend) just one of my best friends. and she assumed i was flirting with him. And thinks since i "flirt with boys over the phone" that im such a baaaad influence on my friend. But now we cant EVER be together like... theres no way i can go hang out at her house and bullshit her mom happy. My mom knows she doesnt like me, but shes not taking it seriously

2006-07-10 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: Plus... my friend doesnt want me to send an email or sumthing to her mom... she told me not to... shes like "oh this sucks, but il fix it, il make her not hate you" but she doesnt DO anything about it. Shes probably scared of her mom or sumthing, im glad i have a semi-good relationship with my mom

2006-07-10 [Dhom]: lol/ yep same here. Emails and other people always seem to make things worse. As a bullshitter myself I think maybe just subtle things like just acting *responsible* and crap around her. Keep conversation around the mum polite and maybe direct lite question to her (and act interested) nothing drastic....then again...if the mom really does put her foot out (aka...calls you a bad influence to your face...) confront her but act full mature (you know, calm and shit...)

2006-07-10 [Zapinc]: Being a bit of a bullshitter myself, ive found it really annoying when other people just stand there going....Yeah...Uh-Huh? Really.....and: Ummm, yeah.... (Fo'shizzle that pisses me off!!!)

2006-07-10 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: I hate it when people catch me when im trying to bullshit them... but then again, that doesnt happen often... her mom... i dont know... her mom is just very strict and weird... anyways... new issue: my best friend stopped talking to me like a month ago because his girlfriend hated me ( i dont know why people just tend to hate me cold heartedly, im not a bad person) but a couple days ago he emailed me and i replyed... but he didnt email back.. and it sucks... because i know he wont because hes "oh so loyal" to his girlfriend. But gosh this time i didnt do anything to deserve it. And it just hurts kinda cuz i miss him soo much its rediculious

2006-07-10 [†Sweets†]: confront him, when his gf isnt around, ask him why he would choose her over you. a gf friend that makes there boyfriend ditch there best friend isnt a good gf. i know i sound like a hypocrit, but i had a good reason

2006-07-11 [sweetkiss]: oo that's what emo is.. i'm with [†Sweets†]

2006-07-11 [Soul Assassin]: as long as you dont' go about confronting him in an accusitory and angry way...possiblly try carrying on civil conversation before you haul out the swearing and accusations :P

2006-07-11 [sweetkiss]: yah

2006-07-11 [Dhom]: nah, I'd work on the girfriend not the friend. Show that she's got nothing to be threatened by..

2006-07-11 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Yeah. Maybe try ignore ur friend...Then he'll realise what he's missin out on. I mean, not full ignoring...but just, dont make the phone-calls often..Not so many e-mails...Ya know. He has to realise SOME time that he's hurt you!

2006-07-11 [Zapinc]: A wise man once said: "Shut the Fuck up, Harrie!!!"

2006-07-11 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i know why, his girlfriend thinks i flirt with him, and i think deep down in that thought might make her kinda jealous. But ive reassured her and i dont, and he has to, but she still hates me, and he picks her over me because he loves her.

2006-07-11 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: he knows hes hurt me, we dont call or email or anything because i know he wont reply or talk back because hes not allowed

2006-07-11 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: I kinda want to talk to her... about it all.. but... i dont know... im actually kinda scared il fuck things up worse... shes very childish though... many times she would IM me and start shit like "you stupid whore!!!! you hate me!!! i know you do!!!! dont talk to <insert his name here> anymore!!!" its soooo stupid... i try to talk to her like a mature young adult when she IMs me and she just acts like a little freakin kid.

2006-07-11 [Dhom]: oh hate that...lol. When your trying to discuss something and they're really childish. pisses me off. Ok maybe you should go with what Mobscene said. Just cut him completely off for a while. Maybe a one last email or so and tell him something that's really gonna hit home. Something like "I'm here you know but if your not a guy enough to control your own life well that's your loss...blah, blah, blah" make it firm that your not going to try contact until he grows up. No offense but what kind of friend just drops you for a gf or bf. That's really wrong.

2006-07-12 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: yeah... the last email i sent him was something like "your not going to reply, thats cool, i understand, whatever" but thats definately the last thing im saying to him...

2006-07-12 [sweetkiss]: hey i usto do that...

2006-07-12 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: wow guess what guys? i was in a 4way called and my friend 5wayed in that kid that was my best friend and we were talking like we used to and he unblocked me on aim so we could talk and... i dont know how long it will last until his girlfriend makes him stop talking to me again but... its a nice chance to leave the depression i was in for a little while

2006-07-12 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: urgh. Childish bitch. How can your friend actually love her?! That's just..totally wrong! OH MY GOSH! So you're talkin to your friend again?

YAY!!!

2006-07-12 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: yeah lol... my friend dan was like "just dont let that crazy bitch find out your talking to him"

2006-07-12 [sweetkiss]: wait i'm confused again

2006-07-12 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: about what?

2006-07-12 [sweetkiss]: everything

2006-07-12 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: oh, sorry

2006-07-12 [†Sweets†]: did i ever tell you guys how i accually made my boyfriend choose between me and his best freind? i dont think i did, but i had good reasons....

2006-07-12 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: what were the reasons?

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: my boyfriends name is kelly, his best friend is jj. jj was always emailing me saying that kelly was cheating on me with this person or that person or that he lied to me about where he was one night or another. i fianlly told kelly that either he was going to ditch jj, or i was leaving him, because i had had enough, and apperntly so had kelly, becasue tha next day jj was blocked on all of kelly's emails and here on et, jj emailed me screaming at me for makeing hos best friend turn his back on him, but apperently the last 10 gfs that kelly has had jj has done the same thing

2006-07-13 [sweetkiss]: not ur falut.. kool what's jj's name on here?

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: wow.... maybe jj was attracted to kelly in a... homosexual way? weird to say but... if he does that then it might be possible :S... and thats understandable... he wasnt a very good friend if he did that to his best friends girlfriend anyways

2006-07-13 [sweetkiss]: yah maybe.

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: jj doesnt have an elftown, i wish he did though....

2006-07-13 [sweetkiss]: anything like that?

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: he has a myspace, and i think he has a tagged

2006-07-13 [sweetkiss]: i'm on tagged

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: wats his myspace

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: ?

2006-07-13 [sweetkiss]: or tagged?

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: his myspace is Why_am_I_bleeding

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: is have to ask kelly for his tagged

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: he doesnt seem to bad.....

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: but you cant judge a book by its cover.... or its myspace lol

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: want me to tell you what he did to his ex?

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: sure.

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: my boyfriend was out with jj, this girl sarah, and jj's girlfriend andera. they were driving around, and a couple days later a get a message from this girl saying jj wanted to talk to me. so i aske the girl who she was andshe said that she was jjs girlfriend, i thought it was andera, but it wasnt it was this girl named debbie, and between her, kelly, andera and i we figurded out that jj was cheating on the both of them, he told both of them that the other one was "just a close friend" and i sent proof to both of them showing that he had this other girlfriend, and he told them both that i was lying

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: thats sooo messed up... omg... i HATE guys like that... what a fuckin pig... isnt one girl enough?

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: gosh its so freakin wrong

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: did the girls believe you?

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: they do now, jj moved down south, and got another gf

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: he probably treats her just the same

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: i dont know who she is, but andera does

2006-07-13 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: oh... i hope she fucks him over lol thats mean but whatever lol

2006-07-13 [†Sweets†]: why do i have the feeling that youve been thought somethign like this before?

2006-07-14 [sweetkiss]: lol.

2006-07-14 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: did you mean through? and yeah, ive been cheated on. And it hurts soooooooooo bad to feel -not good enough- for someone you love. Plus, ive known allot of liars/backstabbers.... and i hate people who are fake.

2006-07-14 [sweetkiss]: me 2.. anywho.. Zup?

2006-07-14 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: nm im sooo bored

2006-07-14 [sweetkiss]: me 2.

2006-07-14 [†Sweets†]: shattered, im going to steal your eye....

2006-07-14 [sweetkiss]: no..pl don't i ned it when i kck my ex in the nuts later 2day

2006-07-14 [†Sweets†]: i said shattered, as in [x.shattered hope.Xx]

2006-07-14 [sweetkiss]: oo kk

2006-07-14 [†Sweets†]: why you kicking your ex though?

2006-07-14 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: why??? lol my eye!!!

2006-07-14 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: and yeah... fighting will get you nowhere sweetkiss... wheras argueing can make someone feel stupid

2006-07-14 [†Sweets†]: its a very pretty eye, and my friend collects eyes, so i am going to steal it

2006-07-14 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: aww thanks :) lol... and... umm feel free? i have 2 eyes anyways

2006-07-14 [†Sweets†]: hehehe

2006-07-15 [sweetkiss]: he hurt me and led me 2 cutting

2006-07-15 [†Sweets†]: kick his ass!

2006-07-15 [sweetkiss]: can't

2006-07-15 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: why not?

2006-07-15 [sweetkiss]: donno

2006-07-15 [†Sweets†]: i know why.... you still should

2006-07-15 [sweetkiss]: y?

2006-07-15 [†Sweets†]: because he desrives it, any guy that leads to that isnt worth it

2006-07-15 [†Sweets†]: if i were you id kill him, not just kick his ass

2006-07-15 [sweetkiss]: lol. i luv him

2006-07-15 [†Sweets†]: i realize this, but what he drove you to isnt love, and its not right

2006-07-15 [sweetkiss]: i know

2006-07-15 [†Sweets†]: get on msn

2006-07-15 [sweetkiss]: i am

2006-07-15 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: u guys can add me 2 ur msn if u want... jenjen_143@hotmail.com

2006-07-15 [†Sweets†]: im yousquashedit@hotmail.com

2006-07-15 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: ohh ok

2006-07-15 [†Sweets†]: hehehe

2006-07-16 [sweetkiss]: done

2006-07-16 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: wellllllll this chat kinda died...

2006-07-16 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: forum... whatever its called

2006-07-16 [Soul Assassin]: usually the only time it's active is when people have problems...its not usually used as a random chat forum

2006-07-16 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i know

2006-07-17 [sweetkiss]: yah. who has a problem and no we can not talk abut mine

2006-07-17 [Dhom]: This doesn't constantly need to be used... I come and go on this thing. And I remember when I stumbled upon it. lol. It was like me, Soul and Shattered hope. So weird.... I just read over clips of everything said.....lol.. totally fucked..

2006-07-17 [Soul Assassin]: yup. it's pretty cool how it'll be "dead" then someone will come around w. a problem and it'll liven right up again. like magic :P

2006-07-17 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: lol

2006-07-18 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: if you had to choose: stay hung up on the person your inlove with who you will probably never be with... or the person whos inlove with you that you love back...but you cant ever get the first one out of your head?

2006-07-18 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: sorry if thats slightly confusing

2006-07-18 [Soul Assassin]: i would choose the one in love that you love only if you think you can both be happy. and as to the one you're "involved with" is that a pleasant way of saying "cheating with"?

2006-07-18 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: im not involved with anyone... well im kinda involved with the one that loves me but he has a girlfriend... and the one i love has a girlfriend and i will probably never be with him

2006-07-18 [Dhom]: I'd say your fucked..

2006-07-18 [Soul Assassin]: i'd agree and suggest that "cheaters" of all sorts rarely prosper. you gotta be an exceptional character, infinitely smooth, charismatic, and a hella amazing liar to pull it off and even then you still get fucked once in a while

2006-07-18 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i feel bad when i think about how phil is hurting tiffany (phil is the one that loves me, that i kind of like and im slightly involved with) but... idk... ok i feel really bad but... im like falling for him... hes the sweetest guy i know... and hes really helping me let go of the other one who i love that i'll never be with

2006-07-19 [Dhom]: yeah but he's no good if he's in a relationship. It'll just end really really messy... He can't truly love you if he's seeing someone else..

2006-07-19 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i dont know... he says he will leave her for me and i wont let him cuz me and her are kinda friends

2006-07-19 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: here not close friends were like very distant friends... well... we know each other and get along.. like.. aquantences

2006-07-19 [Dhom]: your making it really hard for yourself you know that right?

2006-07-20 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i know i know i know... ok forget about that... i have it under control... i know that sounds bad but i got it figured out... but now my mom wants me to stop being friends with my best friend because my best friends mom hates me... and our friendship is just causing problems... and i dont know

2006-07-20 [Dhom]: In all honesty, it comes down to if you feel you can handle it and what you really want. It kind of goes for everything. Pros and Cons. How hard it would be to not be friends with him/her, if you can make it with out caving in, are you going to be better off without this friendship or rather are you going to be seriously troubled to the point where it overloads....yadda yadda.. Are all these complications and efforts truly worth it? or are you putting yourself through pain just to find out that this person doesn't really care as much as you do.... I just think it's about what you want, how far would you go to maintain it and if it's really that important/ worth it...

2006-07-20 [Soul Assassin]: and also how many other relationships you'd be destroying in the process

2006-07-20 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: well its just okay, me and her are friends... her mom hates me.... but... her mom and my mom and my aunt all work at the same place... and my friend and her mom are always argueing and me and my moms name is always brought into it nowadays and my mom thinks its gunna cause trouble especially if child welfare comes around to my friends house because her mom is abusive and an alcoholic

2006-07-20 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: she doesnt want all of this to ruin my mom and my aunts friendship or fuck up things at work... she thinks everyone would just be better off if me and my friend were just aquanteces

2006-07-20 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: but shes my best friend... she knows allot about me... i know allot about her... and i cant just leave her stranded especially with her mom being that way...

2006-07-20 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: the pros and cons just kinda match up i guess and i just dont know what to do anymore

2006-07-21 [sweetkiss]: that's werd

2006-07-21 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i guess? lol

2006-07-21 [Soul Assassin]: well....you're between a rock and a hard place...goodluck. i don't think there's a whole lot that you havn't thought of or considered....

2006-07-23 [sweetkiss]: mm

2006-07-23 [†Sweets†]: .....i missed alot

2006-07-24 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: lol

2006-07-24 [pimpinpink02]: hey

2006-07-24 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: hiya

2006-07-25 [†Sweets†]: i hate life

2006-07-25 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: me too... and... why?

2006-07-25 [†Sweets†]: my ex!!

2006-07-25 [sweetkiss]: me 2

2006-07-25 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: oh... why what happened?

2006-07-25 [sweetkiss]: who wa?

2006-07-25 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: jasla... with her ex

2006-07-25 [sweetkiss]: oo

2006-07-25 [†Sweets†]: GGRRR!

2006-07-25 [†Sweets†]: he broke up with me last year (this is the newest thing) and didnt talk to me, and now on myspace its all he can do to talk to me at every chance he gets! and hes blaming me for what happened last year!!

2006-07-26 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: urgh!! FOOL! Its last year already! Jeez. tell him to get over it!

2006-07-26 [†Sweets†]: you think?

2006-07-26 [Always Hope]: I don't know you [†Sweets†] but if it took him a whole year to realize how great you are, then he isn't worth it. He's to blame for not doing everything he could've to stay with you. Don't let him get you down.

2006-07-27 [sweetkiss]: mm

2006-07-27 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: HES the one that DUMPED you, my advice: forget his ass and try to move on...

2006-07-28 [sweetkiss]: tryed and can't

2006-07-28 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: that was for jasla lol

2006-07-28 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: lol

2006-07-31 [†Sweets†]: well new details with that, hes still talking to me and he pretty much just said that he loves me

2006-07-31 [Always Hope]: And do you believe him?

2006-08-01 [sweetkiss]: lol

2006-08-02 [let.it.bleed]: heyy can i join?

2006-08-03 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: there is no like... joining... you can use the banners and whatever.. you would know that if you read the wiki...

2006-08-03 [let.it.bleed]: sorry.. dont attack me :|

2006-08-03 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: lol i didnt intend for that to sound mean... i was just tellin ya

2006-08-04 [let.it.bleed]: alright lol.. alls good.. so whats up? im hilary... :)

2006-08-04 [Xx_* Mrs.Maria Lynn*_xX]: hey whats up

2006-08-04 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Herrooo. So, did you come on here to talk about something important? Cus I'm in a bit of a state...but ahh, i think it'll take the whole comment box thingy to write it out on LOL

2006-08-04 [let.it.bleed]: lol.. well try and see...

2006-08-04 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: <--- Jen.. and nm... and whats up nicky?

2006-08-05 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Okay. Well last night is kinda new.But bad.. See, my sister,me,my friend,my "brother",Justin [a reall hottie], and Darren. My "brother" is Lincoln.Justin&Darren are brothers.My friend's name is Deanna. So, we went to the movies. My sister&Justin were sitting together, because they're friends. On this "date", my sister was hoping for something to happen between Justin and her. But in the movies, Justin's ex-gf called. A real bitch that one >.< And he answered!!! Jackass. then after the movie,we went to the food quarters of da mall.And Justin's ex was there><Then she starts kissin him an stuff!Jus to spite my sis.She's the ugliest little pug face I've evurr seen in my life!Gosh.-_-'Then we went to walk around.Then we saw her and her friends again!They were like playing and stuff.And my sis was jus standin there.Darren&all of us hate that girl.And then they went on the bus home!Justin didn't even giv my sis a hug. >.< Then apparently on the bus, Darren&Justin&the ex, the ex was talkin bout my sis,and called her Michaela,instead of Michelle.So now we're really angry.And last night we came home,my sis went in to bed and cried her eyes out.She was soooo fugging upset!
I tried to comfort her,but she pushed me away as usual..I told her not to let this bitch affect her.I said that she's a bloody EX!And she's darn ugly.The total opposite of my sister.She didn't wana hear anything from me!Then i came in to her room an hour later..Before that Lincoln and her were talkin.They just left me in our spare room..So we were talkin, and i said:Mich,get real!You barely know this guy.If this girl is always in the way, dont giv up.Justin's ur frend.But if Justin sucks up to her,let him go. Yadda yadda. She didnt wana hear anything!Then she jus said: Well at least my best friend isnt in Auzzie. Thats when i stomped to my room an threw everythin on my floor.Clothing&cushions..And i didnt brush my teeth.I jus went to bed in my clothing..And now i have the worst cold. -_- I feel horrible. My sister and i always used to be best friends!but i feel i cant talk to her anymore..I dunno what the heck happened to our relationship..I wish I could change it somehow!!!! :'[

It's darn awful. ='[[ Its just not working. My sister doesnt even wanna tell me who she likes in school!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so screwed! I've told my mom that Mich needs to change.but my mom doesnt give a damn. She even starts blaming me!! Saying that I'm veryyyyyyyyyy guilty of being rude and blah blah. Yes, i called her a bitch and i said i wished she would die. But sometimes i wish she would! ;o It would make my life easier..But she's my sister, and I love her...So what can I do?!?! She doesnt even wanna go to a councelor. -_-

2006-08-05 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i didnt read it yet all i wanted to say was... wow thats long lol ok im gunna read it HOLD ON!!!! lol

2006-08-05 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: awwww omg... your sister can find someone better definately... maybe justin still has feelings for his ex tho... you cant do nuffin about that

2006-08-05 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: ok im like done with the first paragraph so... reading on..

2006-08-05 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: me and my sister used to be best friends... and we kinda are... she considers me her best friend but sometimes shes kinda know it all and annoying... but yeah.. what did she mean by atleast her bestfriend isnt in auzzie?

2006-08-05 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: my advice is just let things past... sisters fight... me and my sister fight... just let things go and things will bounce back to normal in no time... its only natural to argue with your sister once in a while

2006-08-05 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: and crushes wont kill you.... let her like justin and soon enough another guy will come along

2006-08-06 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: I told you it was long. =P
Yeah, I know.
But it was rude of him to kiss this girl in front of her. Actually, I don't give a damn. It's not my problem. That stupid bitch can cry all night long! She can get over it herself. I couldn't give a damn! She's so cruel to me. I'm sick of it. -_-'

Because my best friend is in Australia, so she's using it against me. >.<
Yes, I know sister's fight. But we fight hecticallehh.
Mmmh...I suppose. Thanks. <3

2006-08-06 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: Yeah it was rude but guys will be guys...
i know how that is... and me and my sister fought for years when we were younger... how many years are u guys apart?

2006-08-08 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Mmmh...She's basically 3 years older than me. 2 years 8 months, to be exact. Why?

2006-08-08 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: oh... my sister is 6 yrs older then me. and my older brother is six years older then her... and my little brother is 6 years younger then me

2006-08-08 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Holy. YOUR parents planned it well, ey! LOL

2006-08-08 [†Sweets†]: wow

2006-08-09 [Always Hope]: I think it's normal for you to fight. My brother is about four years older than me and we were super close until I hit 12ish. Then it all changed and we had nothing in common anymore. Once I hit 15 though, we became super close again and now he's one of my best friends. I know it's rough but it's normal for you guys to fight and even possibly drift for a while.

2006-08-09 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: my parents didnt plan it... and my older brother doesnt have the same dad as me and my big sister and little brother

2006-08-09 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Oh..But I was only joking. =[

I hope we'll become close again. =/

2006-08-09 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: yeah i know i was just sayin... and yeah... im almost sure there will be a point in your life where you and your sister will become close again.

2006-08-10 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Okay. ^^

I've noticed that she's been a tad nicer to me nowa days...And i've been saying hello to her in the mornings...I just hope it won't fade!!!

2006-08-11 [sweetkiss]: srry i've been busy. what did i miss?

2006-08-11 [Nickstur;; ISGONE.]: Well..just scroll up and read the story =P

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